And today ends with some familiar and some new molecules of restlessness, longing and an itch to up and leave.
Casper, mimicking my state of mind. Where did I hide my peace of mind?
I am hanging on to ‘this too shall pass’ for dear life.
What do you do when you want something, but you know you may not be happy once you have it? You look the other way and try and erase the memory of what you saw?
Meanwhile, Casper just yawned at all this drama.
And then, there was Amy Winehouse, with her violently beautiful voice, belting out words that felt like they had been strained from my thoughts.
The movie I live in, is technicolor, with an oscillating background score and a whole bunch of volatile emotions flung about like pages torn from picture magazines, stuck on a large yellow wall, dotted with rough illustrations in ink, filled with mad things people say. And a desk.
Inevitable, that a bookshelf should extend from the floor to the ceiling. Sitting next to the large window with the wood chimes and the billowing white cotton curtain with golden elephants stamped all over.
Inevitable, that a cat should be curled up in the cushy corner that I want to occupy.
Inevitable for Ayn Rand to continue to recur in that corner of my field of vision.
The framed Beatles poster isn’t quite straight. There is a Bob Marley one too, hiding behind the door.
The pieces of the jigsaw puzzle lie scattered near my blue-yellow running shoes.
Ah, daydreams.
Surviving from run to run, waiting for the time to lace up and struggle every step up that hill repeat run, complaining about form and pace, building castles for the marathon coming up.
I’m just happy I’m running, that i can feel the wind in my hair, that I can feel my muscles complain about a rising mileage, that sweat dripping into my eyes is a sensation I can look forward to.
The memory of the profound simplicity of field life keeps piping up like an intelligent and obstinate child.
When did wanderlust find me and trap my soul? I cant remember.
I leave you with Coldplay playing Magic. The music floats in the air like ringlets of smoke or bubbles with a dot of rainbow, created from watered down shampoo and a pen without a refill.
The Nomad in Spirit 