Running and Rudiments

I have been wanting to write about my running, but I kept feeling like I wasn’t running enough to write about it. Like I needed to clock in some more serious miles, before my words could mean enough.
Then today’s run set me free from the mini-whirlpool of thoughts sucking all my peace of mind.
I can only speculate what it is about running that does that. The feeling of the solid ground passing beneath my feet, the release of endorphins, the focusing on breathing or the acute awareness of form that I have been working at developing. I just know that every run brings me back to base, reminds me of who I am and the direction in which I want to head. Its also restores faith in my body’s ability.
And the biggest thing I have derived from all the running, is to be Fearless.
It is the only way to be.

Cannot form the right sentences to express just what I need to say, but as songs do some times, this has come to my rescue.
I have come to believe, that true freedom lies in deriving happiness from within, and begins with actually being at peace with yourself, loving who you are and working with that to move towards who you want to be.
Finding that balance between being confident while attempting to be objective about your flaws.

I am so grateful to the people in my life who still believe in me. Coach comes through to give you exactly what you need when you least expect it, and without asking for it.I hope I find a way to thank him some day.

See, c’est la vie
Maybe something’s wrong with me
But, at least I am free.

And if you need a Song

And if you need a song that speaks Hope, Peace, Wonder and winter mornings with tea and cigarettes, a gentle breeze and a distant tolling bell, I will say to you, “Parachutes: Paper Birds”.

Playing Today

Sam Smith, and heartbreak!

Its amazing what a pair of good headphones can do for an empty evening.

More cheerful music soon!

Until then, I didn’t believe this song could be any better, but this version is as close to perfection as its possible to be! Well, for me.

All of Me. John Legend featuring Jennifer Nettles and Hunter Hayes. (so much alliteration!)

Oh, man. Music wreaks quite a havoc, doesn’t it?

Where did I hide my peace of mind?

And today ends with some familiar and some new molecules of restlessness, longing and an itch to up and leave.

Casper, mimicking my state of mind. Where did I hide my peace of mind?

I am hanging on to ‘this too shall pass’ for dear life.

What do you do when you want something, but you know you may not be happy once you have it? You look the other way and try and erase the memory of  what you saw?

Meanwhile, Casper just yawned at all this drama.

And then, there was Amy Winehouse, with her violently beautiful voice, belting out words that felt like they had been strained from my thoughts.

Curse these hormones.

Don’t say I didn’t warn you.