others have hea…

others have heard this story before, the parts i chose to tell, about my attraction to an older man, love letters, and the magical spoken words we exchanged in those days.but they heard it when events still lacked coherence; and they found the tale romantic, moving, even outrageous. i am retelling it today to insinuate into those random seeming events some kind of significance – so that others can recognise that the romance was not the story but a young woman’s craving for intensity beyond intelligent survival, her fear of dullness, and comfort; her predisposition to a certain kind of life.

so begins a book i just began to read. it might as well be me talking about myself in a few years, so well do i identify with the fear of mediocrity and ‘settling down’.

Dear Doc

“i have heard the mermaids singing, but i know they do not sing for me.”

reality is painful enough for most people, and the schizophrenic is rubbing up against that brick wall. alcohol and drugs can be used lubricate their relationship with reality, says Conrad Fischer.

alcoholcs may not be scizophrenics, but schizophrenics may be alcoholics. remember to look for substance abuse in mental disorders.